In mind: “Damn, this place looks like shit, hopefully the food is good”
“Damn, it looks like shit inside and so many space with empty seats, I guess they are busy during dinner time”
“Fuck they don’t have much of a selection to choose from, I don’t ever want to come back to this Chinese buffet place again”

Talking to co-workers: “Hey guys, I CAN’T BREATH”

I was thinking how this could have happened. Sure the place looked like a place I know my girlfriend wouldn’t step foot in, sure it should have been packed with people during the busiest time of the day, sure the carpet and lighting reminded me of being in an alley late at night, but I was hungry and ate 1 bowl of shit that was mixed in with shrimp or some other type of shell fish that I’m allergic to. As soon as I got back to work I took a pill a friend gave me, told everyone else in my work section that I couldn’t breath and headed to the pharmacy to get a quick puff of medicated air.

You don’t realize how important something is until you need it the most. I started to look around and quickly got envious of the people who had no problems breathing correctly and me at that very moment felt like I was trying to push air through a very small straw. The good thing about this whole altercation was that I was going to the allergy/asthma doctor 2 days later and was going to get all of it handled. But still it sucked and made me realize that I have to watch were I go eat and more importantly stop being lazy about myself, especially my health which I put other things ahead of.

Wake up, go to work… eat, sleep

Wake up, go to work… eat, sleep

Wake up, go to work… eat, sleep

That is what I felt like this week. I did get somethings done, but I felt like I was running around circles thinking of what else I could do once I left work. I didn’t work on things that have been on my plate for some time, I didn’t get some of the little things, and in general wasn’t all there. I have learned this lesson before a year ago setting goals for each day and then the next week of not setting them and witnessed the same emotional distraction from life. I guess I am realizing that certain things in my life are important and feel a need to do something about it or facing the fact that nothing is going to get done by itself. Really simple thinking and it sure can go along way.

Paper vs. Digital

I bought a planner at the beginning of the year and made it a mission to start using it. I have written a total of 2 sentences worth of information in it. I believe the reasoning behind it is because most of the time I operate in an online and digitally way. My ipod and phone are attached to me most of the time and feel naked without them. I seldom put appointments in my cell phone, but in the past couple of weeks have used my icalender and syncing it with my ipod. It is better for me. I do see how a paper planner is beneficial, but just doesn’t work for me. Many habits take time to learn and become routine, but there are situations that are natural from the very beginning to a person. That is the way I feel about my digital planning and the only thing that I will probably add is an iphone.

So in the future or really soon I will see drastic improvements in my life and will use what I have learned from this planning on the wire so to speak and see where it takes me.

Life is going great for me. Don’t have much of anything to complain about and just enjoying my journey through life. I thought about this while in the shower and wanted to get it out there before I headed to bed.

In no particular order:

1. Books- I am currently reading 2 books, well really one now it really grabbed my attention after 3 pages and want to get it done before next week is finish. The book is called, The Alchemist, Will Smith talked about it on Tavis Smiley show awhile back ago and him being someone I admire and sharing the same birthday I had to run out and get it. I’ll do a book review after I am done.

2. Too short to publish- I started my short story series and was going great for 3 straight weeks. I have taken about 2 weeks off and was suppose to write something in it yesterday but didn’t and will finish it up in the next week or afterwards. I think it is funny, but I will post it up on my other website once I update that site also. I am going for the end of this month. Oh yeah it is about a dog… trust me you have no idea.

3. Buying like crazy- I have been buying alot of crap lately. I have bought a good catalog book for writers, a flip video- just to bullshit around and see what kind of project I come up with I will also use it as a vlog from time to time, final cut express 4- that isn’t currently working but hopefully will tomorrow, I plan to use this to edit my little movies and again to just teach myself new things, new ipod adapter for new car, and I am pretty sure some other things that I am forgetting.

4. A new car- I have had my new car (new to me) for 2 weeks and it is going great. I am in the process of writing about all of what went down in my other passion/business blog and will let yall know when that is done. I didn’t think I was going to buy a car so quickly, but that is how things happen sometimes.

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