The experience of lifting 295 lbs…

I didn’t think I would reach this accomplishment this quickly, but it did happen this past friday. I looked at the bar and said to damn I really am about to bench press this amount of weight. So here it is in on words of how I felt before, during, and afterwards.

The last exercise of the evening and I was feeling pump. I ran through my military press, deadlifts, and took a much needed break after the 20 squats of 265 lbs. I was exhausted and knew that it was time to get underneath the iron for a couple of bench presses. I am in no means a body builder and don’t even look like I could lift that amount of weight, but I can and it gives me a rush to continue to lift twice a week.

I start off slow. I put on 245 and lift it 5 times with no problems. Then 265 and the same outcome. Then 275 and feelin the burn. I am pumped, scared, and ready to lift my new limit 5 times. I get a glass of water, think about what I am about to do and relax. Yes I am stalling, but you would be to if you were going to lift 295 5 times. My friend was spotting me if I needed it and cheering me on. The thing that really got me going was that when he said that I lifted 285 the bar was flexing in a frown expression. That very imagination helped me to realize that I was really putting my body into some shock and got my mind right on the very fact that I can really do this and that I was lifting 95 lbs over my body weight.

It was time to put the weight on the bar. I plate went on each side, another 45 lb plate went on, and then a 35. I was getting anxious, getting thrilled that I was going to end my workout on a high note and sleep well, I mean like a new born baby yapping and crying all day. I looked at the bar again and said damn it is time. My muscles were tight some and my mind very clear of what I was going to do. I was imaging that I have already lifted this amount of weight. I put on my gloves, positioned the bench to make sure it was even with respect to the bar. I rolled the weight forward and placed my body on the back of the bench and I paused…put one hand on the bar…took it off…took a couple of deep breaths, tighten up all my muscles, hold in my stomach, and get ready. I am telling you it is crazy how calm I was before the lift and how that quickly changed when the bar was in the air under my power. My whole face was also tight as I lifted the crazy amount of weight and was that way as I slowly lowered it down to my chest and then with force, steadiness, concentration, and pure will to not let the weight stay planted on my chest and look like a dumbass in front of my friend and him secretly telling others that I dropped nearly 300lbs on my chest. I was almost done lifting 1, 2, 3, and then 4 but that fourth one was crazy fuckin heavy and knew that that would be my limit for now and do another one in a minute or 2 to finish off the 5 that I said that I was going for. The amount felt heaver as it went on and I was really thinking of stopping after 3, but that voice of my friend and the will to live my dreams was pushing me and the excitement that I felt afterwards got me up and ready to exercise some more and do some other things that other people would envy or would only image of doing.

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Losing bets…5-0 in paintball…22 slices of pizza: The weekend and a realization

This past weekend was great. I relaxed with my girlfriend, hung out with the boys over paintball and strip joint (not a fan of them, but this night was pretty fun), and had a good sunday to transition into the week. I could have done more with writing, but didn’t plan to though. My goals and mission for the year are going well and do see them all being completed. I have been thinking what I would right about next and figured that I shouldn’t force anything, but let it come out. I realized something though that got me to thinking why this is so.

As human beings we are motivated, but differently and with strong determination to do when others push us against the wall.

Why is this the case? Why do we perform better with a little of anger inside our soul? Is it because we are used to completing a task or goals that we don’t get much excitement from it? Or is it that person, the enemy, thinking that we can’t do?

I witnessed this this weekend. I asked a friend to see if he could find information at the local college about any creative writing classes. I texted him to see if he did so and said that he didn’t and that I should just write more and read books on the subject to improve my writing. I was and still ticked off that he said that and determine to prove him wrong. Yes I will write more but nothing speeds up the process more than having constructive criticism from an actual person who has done it before and still writes that way. I am also fuckin tired of reading books to solve the problem, why should I keep on reading and reading and still won’t have that person talking specifically about my work? So I am more than ever to find a creative writing class and be the writer that I want to become.

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