I have alot of things figured out for my life. What I ultimately want to do, the female department, hobbies/trying new things, direction of my book, workout routine, and whatever else I think of that I don’t cringe or lose sleep over. But still that isn’t totally set in stone either. Sometimes certain things happen for a reason and we have to make up our mind on what path we will take.
I don’t even know if I should be talking about this because even though I don’t tell the people I work with my business about what I really do when I am not at work I am just paranoid about really showing all of myself. I will once I make that leap to my real passions running most of my day to day life. But dammit here I go and I don’t have any regrets for what I am about to say.
It sucks, it honestly does suck. Work that is. It is not perfect and I don’t think it will ever be perfect and I also sense that from other people that I come into contact with. I am even surprised at some people that seem like work is the thing they live for, but when you hear them saying, “I don’t know anyone who wakes up in the morning and is happy to go into work, I don’t”, it makes you wonder what they are really living for. I also get alot of people being bored when they have free time or when they call in sick. It is probably they are so used to their routine that if something is slightly different than they go crazy and don’t know what to do. Me on the other hand dream about what I am going to do when I get off while at work and would be doing something productive with my time other than watching t.v. when a few hours seems like an eternity.
Now is a new year and I don’t make new year’s resolutions, but determine what I want out of my life on the fly and now I am at a point that I just don’t want the same of what I have right now. I just don’t feel like jumping into something when I feel deep in my heart that it is going to be the same thing. I want atleast for now something that will keep me busy, something that will give me satisfaction for doing the job well, and something that will challenge me to want to keep on learning. That sounds like what everyone wants, but not everyone goes for it, hell I am not there myself yet. I don’t want this to be permanent either because I have so many things I want to do for the world through my passions that will help guide me to my purpose in life.
So I will search and search until I find that very thing to help me on my quest. If anyone has any ideas let me know.