So, What Did I Accomplish and Learn About Myself in 2009?

This year has been great and I learned so much about myself and what I can do if I set few goals and saw what happened. These are some of the highlights of my year.

  1. No internet for 2 weeks.
  2. Read a book in a day.
  3. Did a crazy cardio challenge for a whole week.
  4. Multiple times walking 29 flight of stairs (twice with 10lb ankle weights on each leg).
  5. Went to California and enjoyed myself immensely.
  6. Figured out my other passion: Photography!
  7. Read 5 books in a month.
  8. Did task/goals on my someday list.
  9. Set my countdown to leave Corporate America.
  10. I learn how to write better; also, my grammar improved so damn much.
  11. Start a novel.
  12. Wrote over 300,000 words.
  13. Take a trip for the sole purpose of seeing how fucked up a city truly is (Detroit).
  14. A 900-plus-mile road trip from Detroit to New York.
  15. Saw how a small business is striving during a shitty economy.
  16. Wrote for a full month in my novel (nearly 30k words of dedication).
  17. Bought a house.
  18. Proposed to my girlfriend!!!!! (She said yes).
  19. Finished writing my first novel. (Wrote over 108k words! It is a pile of shit right now, but I’m the shit for completing this crazy challenge).
  20. Wrote every single day of the year and will never stop doing so…

I also figured out many things about myself.

  1. I’m an impatient person.
  2. I work best with less goals.
  3. I think way too fucken much and wish I can turn it off.
  4. I go into loops of thought and don’t know how to stop thinking about what I don’t want to think about. (This one is weird, will explain once I figure out how to get out of my head).
  5. I am an extreme type of person. My fiancée notice this when I was doing my crazy challenges.
  6. I truly found myself. This is an on-going experience, but writing everyday gave me a chance to question everything about myself. In the beginning of the year, I wrote for 2 straight months of thoughts that were in my head. I was surprised by the information that was effecting the way I lived. I strongly recommend people to write for a couple of minutes a couple of days a week to have a clearer vision of what they want to do or struggling with.
  7. I like walking. It is great exercise and very therapeutic. Besides laughing at all of the fat people running on the trail I frequently walk, I’m still amazed how better it is on my joints and how the weight disappears. Since I’m so much in my head, the walking helps me to not think (well, as little as possible) and gives me the opportunity to calm my thought, provoking ass down.

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A Post Revisited: I Lost the Love…

A poem that still is true today.

I wrote this poem over three years ago. I don’t know who goes back to reread my old stuff. I know it is hard to get past the typos, shitty grammar, and incorrectness of other things I wasn’t aware of back then. However, I’ve edited the post/poem and I hope that you can take it for what it is.

I’ll tell you right now, it isn’t about any girl that I’ve dated or had relations with. Let me know what you think

I Lost the Love

She was very good to me. Never talked back and supported me with all the stupid ideals I had. I thought that I would stay with her the rest of my life. We would help each other through everything– but she turned on me. Or did I loose interest in her?

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2nd Quarter Review and What I’m Planning

This post was written 2 months ago and have been busy doing other things. It is funny, though, once you write something down, things start to happen and relatively quickly.

The second quarter has come and past, I’m already into the discovery of my next step in my life. I’m not going to explain what did and didn’t happen, but I’m to say that it was a hard, challenging, and a worthwhile quarter.

For the most part, my story isn’t as different from the next person, but as I talk to more people and get their take on what I’m doing, I am seeing that I’m taking hold of my life, even with being trap in Corporate America. I have learn that I’m my worst enemy and my biggest cheerleader. I have to learn the difference between being motivated by others and motivated by myself. If one is constantly motivated by others, than their life is not theirs, they are being push in the wind, because the action is controlled by reaction.

“It is easy to be motivated by somebody not believing in you; the hard part is to be motivated when no one is around…

-Me

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