The year has started. The first month is almost finished. I’m selling coffee. But I still feel confused. I feel like Mark at the end of the story. There, at the beach, thinking about his life and all the positive things to come his way.
Oh yeah. Mark. Who the fuck is Mark. Mark is the main character of my book. He goes through this week long journey of getting rid of everything. Than he is ready to face his future straight on and than bam. Something happens at the very last minute.
I feel like Mark before that minute. I feel hopeful, anxious, confused but ready for whatever comes my way. I have no real clue of how I’m going to get to a place that I don’t even know the path of. I think as long as I try things differently. Get scared a little and just keep pushing myself into a place that I have no clue of how it’s going to help me.
Yeah. Some shit like that. lol. Thinking about it out loud is like I’m trying to hard to do things differently. But I have to do things differently in order to get to a place better than I was the previous year.
There is no easy way around it. I have to just keep on doing things that seems out of the ordinary and that I keep asking myself why. And for now I don’t know what the why is. I guess it can be why am I doing this business stuff. But that question was answered years ago.
Continue reading 2018: ?
Lately, I’ve been up and down with business. It’s been tough to get new clients. Especially folks who don’t know me and how some of my current clientele has died off. But truly, I’m okay with that. It’s best that I try to find people who are about my brand and don’t mind spending money on a great product. But something hit me last week and now I’m thinking of how to make that happen. The thing that hit me was making my own rules. Again. I’ve heard that many times, but something about my situation made it more real to me. The reason why is because there are so many different things out there many people are using to start and grow and sustain their business. From blogs, websites, facebook, instagram, hitting the pavement at business networking events, snapchat, linkedin, youtube and whatever else that is currently out there and what is their to come. It’s alot of shit and those things aren’t automatic to one’s success. But perhaps is is making your own rules of how you are going to get out there and make this business stuff work.
So that is what I’m going to do. I’m going to use what I want, how I want and get going from there. I can’t just do things the way other people are doing things because truthfully, I’ve tried that already. It’s a waste of time and frustrating and not true to who I am and the best part about making my own rules is that I can always change them. It’s up to me and that is a great feeling. I like that I am giving myself permission to do whatever the fuck I want.
It’s the only thing that matters.
Fuck Everybody else.
Let me explain:
Depending on others for your own well-being will get you spinning out of control. The time you are spinning out of control is only dependent on when the fuck decide to you wake up, look yourself in the mirror and follow your own path.
Looking for other people’s guidance and advice looks great on paper, but it only slows you down. What it also does is make you mad at the other person for your own decisions in life. And when you are accountable to yourself, you can only blame your self and praise yourself.
So. Don’t look for others advice. Research and make your own decisions. It will be hard at first, but you will start to build confidence in your ability to live your life on your own terms.
Your own terms.
Continue reading 2017: Self-Accountability.