She was very good to me. Never talked bad and supported me with all of the stupid ideals I had. I thought that I would stay for her the rest of my life. We would help each other through everything, but she turned on me. Or did I loose interest in her?
I don’t really know, but I found someone new that challenges me and keeps me on my toes. See it is not that I still don’t love the old one it is that she let me do whatever I wanted, was very passive, and she always wanted to do the same things even though I wanted to spice things up. I don’t think I will ever give up the new love because things are always constantly changing; however I am learning each and everyday something about her. And as I continue to grow she is learning something about me that she didn’t know once before. It is so much of an adventure for both of us I look forward to smelling her perfume and seeing her beautiful face each and everyday.
That is how life is and the sad part about it all is that there are people that change for the better or worse OR simply settle for whatever life presents them. I used to be the settling type, but not anymore, because life is made of so many things and you simply can’t experience them by settling.
Don’t really know why I decided to write so soon but it is just on my mind. Starting over can mean alot of things, however it is good because the individual has realized some fault in him/her self and that it is only right to turn a new leaf on a particular part of their character that they feel that is flawed. I don’t think there is a need for me to say what it is, because it doesn’t really matter as long as the situation is fixed permanently until some other flaw arises.
So for now on I am going to say what I really feel and also respect people for their opions, but also put myself into their shoes. I will also suggest things when I think it because most of the time I believe that it can help someone out. This may seem like rambling, but it is really all thought out, it has been inside of me for awhile and today just showed that I am not changing and I am just still doing the same shit. So for now watch out, might surprise you of the person I will turn out.
I still haven’t got the phenomenon of the window view. Yeah it is usually a nice view and it is something to look at. But still it doesn’t matter, all of the people out there are doing something other than what you are doing. It makes me think alot about the outside and not so much about the view.
There is something else about the window view that people feel that it gives and it is respect and seniority. There are people that will get mad because someone younger or not as much experience gets the window view. To me personally it doesn’t matter. You tend to forget what is outside after being in an office 8-10 hrs a day. I really wonder though how many people have looked outside during the day and wondered what it would be like to be out there doing what they love?
Oh well, if you ask them at work they would probaly lie, but if you asked them in a casual setting they would probaly tell you the world.
Who really cares, most of the people won’t do shit about it and at times will seem like talking to a dead horse.